I’ve been absent here for a while. Some of you might be wondering why I haven’t been posting, and, if you follow me on Instagram, might have sensed that something was going on. If so, you’d be right, and I took the time away from here because I wasn’t ready to share what was going on. There has been enormous change in my life and I wasn’t quite ready to share what that change was. While I could have continued blogging about other things, I just didn’t have it in me. I still don’t know if I’m ready, but blogging has always been a place for me to share my life. Writing is therapeutic for me, and while most of the words I’ve written during this season will stay safely in a journal in my nightstand drawer, some of them feel safe to share.
I’m no longer getting married.
Two months ago, my relationship ended, 6 weeks shy of 7 years together. Most days I feel okay, but writing this brings all the sadness to the surface again. Life is completely different than it was just 10 short weeks ago. It wouldn’t be fair for me to share all the details of this breakup on the internet. What I will say is this: After nearly 7 years together, and 6 months engaged, I certainly didn’t expect to find myself here, in a studio apartment, writing these words.
This has been a season of enormous change. It seems fitting that this would happen as summer turned to fall. My life and the seasons seem to be transitioning together. Reeling from the end of a long relationship, I also had to move. We lived together, and considering a lot of factors, it made the most sense for me to find a new place. While I might choose different circumstances if I could, this move has been a mostly positive change. I’m in a neighborhood I’ve always loved, but never thought I’d get to live in. My third floor apartment has a view and vintage character, which I love. I get to decorate it however I’d like and learn to live alone – I’ve never lived alone in my entire life. It’s been empowering.
This season of change will bring change to this space too.
You have probably already noticed that, since the whole site looks different now. One thing that’s always been consistent about my blog has been change. I’ve always struggled to really find a niche here that I can stick with. I want to write more. I’d like to share feelings and experiences with you and discuss the hard things, the meaningful things. It’s time to get back to my (blogging) roots, share real life with you and, hopefully, connect. I’m still figuring out what that looks like, so bear with me. I still love and want to talk about style and beauty, and want to bring back the home and decorating posts. At the same time, I want to do more here, and I hope you’ll enjoy that, too.
Life has been wild, but this blog is still my home.
That’s what Wild & Pine is all about. The freedom to explore, expecting the unexpected, while staying true to my roots. I hope that this site can cultivate a community, that we can laugh and cry together, talk about shoes and heartache, family and throw pillows. Life has been so difficult for me recently, but it’s inspired me too. I’m inspired to dig deeper and grow. I’m so lucky to have this space to do that.